Day 5: What is your boggart?

This is another tough question, I mean what would my boggart really be? the thing that I'm most scared of is failing or disappointing someone so would it be a failed paper? A letter telling me that I was expelled? A teacher looking disappointed? Or would it be a teacher who I was intimidated by (similar to the way that I feel about Dr. Brandes or Dr. Robertson)? Would there be something in the magical world that I don't know that I'm afraid of? Would it be a huge spider like Ron? So many different things that it could be but I guess that's the problem with being a coward.

Day 4: What is your patronus?

I've thought a lot about this particular question because I really don't know what my patronus would be so obviously the logical thing to do would be take many online quizzes (http://www.gotoquiz.com/what_s_your_patronus (Panther), http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/979765/what-is-your-patronus-version-1 (wolf), http://quizfarm.com/quizzes/Find+Out+Your+Patronus/zachary7/the-ultimate-and-real-patronus-quiz/index.php (goat), http://www.allthetests.com/quiz26/quiz/1249424815/Which-Harry-Potter-Patronus-Suits-You (otter), http://www.quizmoz.com/quizzes/User-Submitted-Personality-Tests/w/What-Is-Your-Harry-Potter-Patronus-Quiz.asp (snake), http://quizfarm.com/quizzes/new/nwindu2/what-is-your-harry-potter-patronus/index.php (otter),  http://www.selectsmart.com/FREE/select.php?client=blackmagic123 (rat)) and that didn't really tell me too much.

Given the choice I think I'd choose a cat. I like cat's, they're nice. It's also Professor Mcgonagall's patronus and she's one of my favourite characters. I think the cat suits me but I'm still really unsure.

Day 3: Who is your favorite professor?

PROFESSOR MOGONIGOLL. She is defs my favourite. She is so unassuming but then in the end she is just so awesome.

I like Snape as a character but he's not a nice teacher from what I can tell so I don't really think I'd like to cross him but that's mostly because i don't want to be in Slytherin.

Day 2: What is your favorite class?

So I know it's been a long time since I actually did anything for the 15 day challenge but such is life.

My favourite class would probably be History of Magic or Charms. I really love history and Charms sounds very similar to my History of Science and Technology but with a more practical part.

There are so many good courses at Hogwarts that if I really had to choose it would take me many house, similar to my course selection for university.

Christmas Time Is Here, Happiness And Cheer, Joy For All Which Children Call Their Favourite Time Of Year.

It's that time of year again my friends! Finals and Christmas the two most stressful things that you could possibly put together.

Today I finished my Christmas shopping and wrapping so that something but I still have one exam left to write which is unfortunate esically seeing that I didn't really study for it. HOST shouldn't be too bad though or at least not as terrifying as the FYP oral exam. Yikes.

The good thing is I have a lot of fun to look forward to after this is over. My friend invited me to her family Christmas party tonight and then I have a few other gatherings during the week, like my other friends birthday dinner at a Greek restaurant which is good.

In other news, because I suck at blogging and never actually post anything, I work at Coles now (YAY!) and actually have money to afford things like food and presents.

How is everyone's holiday season going? I'd love to hear from someone...anyone...

P.S. ten point to whoever can guess the origins of the title quote

I HAVE A FOLLOWER~

I find this really exciting. They might not care what I say and how great I am but they're still following me.

In other news, my brain is dead and school is busy. YAY FYP!

"Sexing The Cherry" and Other Late Night Revelations.

University is busy but still feels like high school. I still hang out with the same people, I still think partying is stupid and I still feel like I sit on the outer edge of everything.

The other morning while I was sitting alone reading Saint Augustine's Confession I decided to take a break and look at the window display about FYP and HOST and say a book sitting at the bottom called "Sexing The Cherry" by Jeanette Winterson. I thought the title sounded interesting so I put it on hold at the library and it came in and I started reading it. I really do believe that it has in some way changed my view on the world even though I'm only halfway done. It told a story of The Twelve Dancing Princesses and it touched me in way I can't begin to fathom. It spoke of great heartbreak and of freedom that was fought for and decet and betrayal. The story of the 10th sister was my favourtie:

When my husband had an affair with someone else I watched his eyes glaze over when we ate dinner together and I heard him singing to himself without me, and when he tended the garden it was not for me.
He was courteous and polite; he enjoyed being at home, but in the fantasy of his home I was not the one who sat opposite him and laughed at his jokes. He didn't want to change anything; he liked his life. The only thing he wanted to change was me.
It would have been better if he had hated me, or if he had abused me, or if he had packed his new suitcases and left.
As it was he continued to put his arm round me and talk about being a new wall to replace the rotten fence that divided our garden from his vegetable patch. I knew he would never leave our house. He had worked for it.
Day by day I felt myself disappearing. For my husband I was no longer a reality, I was one of the things around him. I was the fence which needed to be replaced. I watched myself in the mirror and saw that I was mo longer vivid and exciting. I was worn and gray like an old sweater you can't throw out but won't put on.
He admitted he was in love with her, but he said he loved me.
Translated, that means, I want everything. Translated, that means, I don't want to hurt you yet. Translated, that means, I don't know what to do, give me time.
Why, why should I give you time? What time are you giving me? I am in a cell waiting to be called for execution.
I loved him and I was in love with him. I didn't use language to make a war-zone of my heart.
'You're so simple and good,' he said, brushing the hair from my face.
He meant, Your emotions are not complex like mine. My dilemma is poetic.
But there was no dilemma. He no longer wanted me, but he wanted our life
Eventually, when he had been away with her for a few days and returned restless and conciliatory, I decided not to wait in my cell any longer. I went to where he was sleeping in another room and I asked him to leave. Very patiently he asked me to remember that the house was his home, that he couldn't be expected to make himself homeless because he was in love.
'Medea did,' I said, 'and Romeo and Juliet and Cressida, and Ruth in the Bible.'
He asked me to shut up. He wasn't a hero.
'Then why should I be a heroine?'
He didn't answer, he plucked at the blanket.
I considered my choices.
I could stay and be unhappy and humiliated.
I could leave and be unhappy and dignified.
I could Beg him to touch me again.
I could live in hope and die of bitterness.
I took some things and left. It wasn't easy, it was my home too.
I hear he's replaced the back fence.

I found this extremely powerful. Especially "He admitted he was in love with her, but he said he loved me.Translated, that means, I want everything. Translated, that means, I don't want to hurt you yet. Translated, that means, I don't know what to do, give me time".

In short, I believe everyone should read this book and I don't have the words to describe how I feel right now. This book has given me hope of a better future that will become my alright past and replace my mediocre present. I don't want to "die of bitterness" but I don't know if I have the strength to change my world. If I had half the strength of the Twelve Dancing Sisters I would consider myself extremely blessed. But alas, I shall always be an introverted coward.

Excitement Building.

It's the last week before classes and the nervous excitement is starting to build. After getting my hair cut today, it looks fab, I feel much more secure about my position at the university. The nice letter that I received in reply to my RSVP to the Matriculation. Everyone at King's is so nice and friendly that I really don't understand why I'm so scared.


Another thing that I want to tell you that you probably don't really care about is that I got my hair cut today. I kinda wanted to get it cut all the same length but my hair dresser, Mandy, advised against it. She cut off about an inch so it's still pretty long, or at least longer than it has been for a few years, and at Christmas time we'll do it again and then everything will be the same length. I'm pretty excited.

Also I posted a new look on lookbook. Give me hype?

Aren't I adorable? Yes?

OH! and I am doing some daily challenges. when I don't I don't do normal blogging nearly enough and I feel bad. If I do the daily challenges I can start adding my normal blogging to the end of it and actually maintain this sorry excuse for a blog. Sorry if it annoys up but I like them and I think they're fun. All will be good.

Day 1: What is your House?

When I was younger I really wanted to be in Gryffindor. It seemed like the place to be because all the main characters were in it and Gryffindor did well at just about everything and won the house cup a lot.

However, as I grew older I started to think that Ravenclaw would be the best place to be. I figure it would have the most people that I would get along with and like. I also really like how the people in Ravenclaw are smart and like to read, two thing that I value a lot in a friend. If I had a choice in my house I would choose Ravenclaw.

Although a lot of my friends tell me that I would be a Ravenclaw I always feel like if I was under the sorting hat I'd get put in Hufflepuff.  Now don't get me wrong, Hufflepuff is a noble house and I have nothing against it, I just never saw my self as one or really feel like a true Hufflepuff.

I haven't joined pottermore yet. It makes me sad. I'm really excited to find out what house I'll actually be in. Like Harry I'll be sitting there whispering "not Slytherin, not Slytherin" and hope for the best (Ravenclaw).

15 day Harry Potter challeng

Day 1: What is your House?

Day 2: What is your favorite class?

Day 3: Who is your favorite professor?

Day 4: What is your patronus?

Day 5: What is your boggart?

Day 6: What is your least favorite class?

Day 7: Who is your least favorite professor?

Day 8: What do you REALLY think of Ron Weasley?

Day 9: What is your favorite book in the series?

Day 10: What is your chosen Deathly Hallow?

Day 11: If you made horcruxes, what would they be and how many?

Day 12: What is your favorite magical creature?

Day 13: Which Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher was the best?

Day 14: What is your signature spell?

Day 15: Would you have joined Dumbledore’s Army?


YES YES YES. Starting tomorrow.

Nova Scotia Pride

So, as you may not be aware by now my dear readers I live in Nova Scotia Canada. If you don't know that I'm sorry to say that you're not very observant seeing that it says so in the side bar and that makes me a little bit sad (A lot sad). I feel that my tiny province is often over looked but we're finally starting to get more known, at least in the music world. Lately we've played host to many bands including Kiss, Metallica, Paul McCartney, Arcade Fire, and others who escape me.

Still, Nova Scotia isn't a place that many people consider to come and live even though we're really fab and friendly and beautiful. Today in the Chronical Herald this article was published and it made me really happy. It's really great that people from around the world can come here and make it there home and feel completely comfortable here. Halifax is a city with a town feel. We have four universities, 3 or so community college campuses and a few schools for the fine arts, we have lovely shopping areas and two pretty decent malls, our food is great and we have a pretty great music scene so I'm left wondering why more people don't want to live here?


I may never know the answer to this question but I'm really glad that I live here and I can honestly say that I can't see myself living anywhere else. Nova Scotia is a beautiful place and I'm not just saying that because I live here and have lived here all my life. I truly believe it with all my heart and I wish other people could see what a lovely place it is and come here to live.

A Summer That's drawing To Its Close

hello my lovely people who no doubt care about me greatly. If you're reading this after so many months of not posting anything it's because either a)you're new; welcome, b) you knew I'd get bored and come back eventually, or c) You really truly like me and care about what I have to say at exactly 4:41 in the morning when I haven't slept in 16 hours!

So Summer is almost over as no doubt you've all noticed which means two things 1.) September is here and 2.) UNIVERSITY STARTS. I'm so nervous and excited I can barely think about it.

If you've been following my book blog at all (which I hope you don't because it's quite terrible and lacking in many areas) you might have noticed that I've been preparing by reading books from my book list and might feel a little bit ready to tackle this next year. This is where you'd be wrong. I've read 6 out of the 43 on the list and I still have two more to read from the first section alone. yikes. Looks like I'm going to go in without my head.

I really hate it when you get hungry and lonely at 4 in the morning because you never want to eat because you want to sleep and you shouldn't eat before you sleep because it's bad for your digestion and no one's awake at 4 in the morning to talk to because like any sensible person they're all fast asleep and dancing around dreamland.

I've felt really uninspired lately when it comes to both reading and writing. Today I wrote for the first time in a month and last night I finished the Odyssey which was a feat.

This was pointless.

PROMPROMPROM.

So.. it's been a while.

I'm almost graduated.

I went to prom and I'd rather not talk about it, in fact I'm currently trying to forget it..

As you can see I looked fantastic.

This is just a brief update on my life.

More dets to follow.

(hit me up)

Invincible.

I like to pretend that I'm invincible. That no one can hurt me no matter how hard they try. It makes me feel powerful but worries me at the same time. I know that if I keep on building myself up on this cracked foundation that someday someone will come and push me a little to far and everything that I've build will crumble and fall. But for now no one can harm me. I'm taller than a tree, I have more energy than a nuclear bomb and I can go father than a spaceship. I am invincible.

"Another day another dollar"

Yes friend, I've been to see Sloan again. It was amazing in every thinkable way. Jay smiled at me. I died. I don't really want to talk about it a lot because it's all I've been talking about for the last while but if you want to see some pictures you can go here (link supplied by Sloan themselves)

I bough some post cards today. I'm super cool

I thought they were cool. I'm going to put then on my door to make it more awesome (y)

Last but on least I posted a new look on lookbook. I actually did a description this time so I'm not going to explain it to you but defs go check it out. I'll love you forever <3

Finally!

Yes, it's the moment we've all been waiting for. The start of my two week break. All the anticipation, all the failing planning, it's all come down to this! Today starts my two week veg//music experience. Books will be read, concerts will be seen, adventures will be had and coffee will be drunk!

It's going to be a pretty bomb time (other than the fact that Bearded Boy and I will probably never ever see each other which is a shame. but such is life). Aaron promised me a mixed cd for my car for after the break because he's tired of listening to Metric when we drive across the street. What a kid. I'm going to miss him and the rest of sax ensemble over the break. D: I miss them already.

I'm Choking.

Today was rather uneventful. I had off block first and caught up on my gossip, calculus which I slept through, a drama filled lunch hour, a boring global class, a physics class that I actually understood what was going on, a bad drive home, a worse dinner and an alright rehearsal at band. Let's start at the beginning shall we?

I woke up late this morning (again) so I didn't have time to shower. I'm pretty sure I stunk all day but everyone's too nice to say anything about it but that's okay. The first 15 minutes of being in school were my most productive all week, which is rather sad. I went to talk to the guidance counselor about switching from a BS to a BA and he said it doesn't really matter if I want to go into Library Sciences so all I need to do to get this all sorted out is to talk to a family friend who did FYP/BS last year to see what he thought so I can weigh the pros and cons. Then I got my essay signed by Mrs. Abbass so that I can apply for the entrance scholarship (which I probably won't get because I don't think my average is high enough but whatever). This was all before first bell.

After the bell rang Amanda, Steph and I went down to the caf because the library was too quite and it was starting to freak us out. We talked about our Junior High days. Can't say I enjoyed reliving those but whatever right? After a while Kelly joined us and told us all about everything that's going on in her life which was neat because it means that all of us are equally messed up. I had two oat meal cookies and some chocolate milk. It was great. The caf makes the best oat meal cookies. It took me months to figure out why but it's because they put rice crispies in them. It makes them soft yet chew. SO GOOD.

Second period was a bore. I love math but I can't stand the class. I makes me so sleepy and I really don't know how I stay awake. I spend the whole time doodling in the margins and talking to Ashley. It probably isn't the smartest idea but then again, I'm not that smart. I kept on forgetting that it was second period so I was really dreading my next class but Ashley kept on reminding me that it was lunch next and it made the class a little more bearable.

Lunch dragged on more than calculus. eating was cool except for the music sucked but what arose after we left made me want to claw my eyes out. Apparently all my friends have major issues with going stag to prom which I don't get. They spent the whole time bitching about how one of them ruined the others safety net, which they didn't know about. It was ridiculous! I feel really bad for the guys, they have NO idea what's coming. I've been planning on going stag for years and I guess that's out of style. Whatever, I'm going to have a great time no matter who I'm with. 

Global was boring as hell. We're learning about atomic bombs. FUN.

I WAS SO HAPPY IN PHYSICS. I actually got what we were doing today. I understand tension like nobody's business. Garrett's been sitting in front of me since I stole his seat (which I'm pretty sure he isn't to pleased about) but he's sooo funny. I guess he's really good at physics but he scoffs when people don't understand things and it kills me. I wish to befriend him but he'd never fall for it ever. 

Everything else was kinda boring until I choked on my dinner. It was terrible. I threw up. I never throw up. Cruse Marty for making me laugh.

After that whole ordeal was done and over with I went to band which was alright. Ms. D was there visiting Ms. Corbin which was super neat and me and Zach had some pretty cool bari conversations.  

Every time I drove today it snowed. Sorry Nova Scotia but any snow we get tonight is all my fault. I apologize.

COFFEE HOUSE TOMORROW! WHO'S PUMPED? I AM!

I talk to much.

This Is Getting Ridiculous.

If you live in HRM you know exactly what I mean. Apperently the roads were bad this morning so maybe it was a good thing that they canceled school today but yesterday was far worse. Driving home was a pain and it was dangerous.

I know that they whole canceling school this is mostly politics not but the fact that they won't cancel school on a day that is actually dangerous but will cancel it on a day this is really nice (but rather cold) just won't do. We're in high school, we can drive and a lot of us don't have a lot of experience with winter driving and bad tires. It's just a bad idea to keep us in school on those days.

In all honesty I am glad we don't have school today. I've been saying this for the past two weeks but I'm so over school right now. I'm ready for the break to be here and there's only two days left before I stay out late and have a great time (and read lots of books). The only thing that could make the coming days better would be if The Weakerthans were playing here during the Feb break. That would be sweet. 

Gah.

OMG ADFSHASJDKFHASJDGHJAHDSFLA

TODAY WAS THE MOST AMAZING DAY EVER. I normally hate Mondays but today was so good it makes me love them.

My morning classes weren't that great, I'd go as far to say they were boring but lunch time was SO GOOD! I chilled with Sam today at lunch and we were catching up. I told her about the situation with Bearded Boy and about how I made my prom dress which she was quite excited about. AND THEN ME AND HIM MADE THE BEST EYE CONTACT EVER. It was right after the first bell rang after lunch. It was one of those times were you both turn your heads. I really hope he messages me soon

AND THEN WHEN I GOT HOME I HAD A LETTER FROM KING'S. I ALMOST HAD A HEART ATTACK BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID THAT I HADN'T GOTTEN IN BUT THEN I OPENED IT AND IT SAID "On behalf of the Dean of The University of King's College I am pleased to inform you that you have been accepted into the bachelor of science and foundation year program." OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. I ACTUALLY JUMPED UP AND DOWN (mostly because there was no one home) I WAS SO HAPPY. and then my father didn't answer the phone and I walked the dog.

That was all the amazing that one day can handle other than the super hard sax ensemble music that we were reading today. It's going to take some work but we did really good for sight reading. I really want to say that tomorrow is going to be even better than today but I haven't done any of my homework yet and I doubt I will unless I can't sleep...again.

I'M GOING TO UNIVERSITY!

Piano and Dinner.

So today is Sunday (yesterday when I woke up I thought it was Sunday and nearly had a heart attack) and as the majority of my Sundays go it was pretty low key. I woke up at noon, ate a muffin watched Dog Whisperer and then practice some piano. All of that was procrastination that continued through the day until around two when I finally got down to actually doing the dreaded homework I was assigned of Friday. I decided to opt. out of doing the physics stuff because my heads still foggy and I don't know what the questions are asking me for but i did do all my calculus work which is excellent.

Tonight my grandmother is coming over for dinner which is super exciting. My Grandmother is one of my family members that I get along the best with. With both share a love for music and a greater love for Chopin and I can't wait to see her how much better I am at waltz, op. 64 no. 2 in C Sharp Minor. 

it's really beautiful and I've been killing my hands over it all week so I hope she's impressed. Someday you might here it to seeing as though I'm an attention whore and like to take videos of me playing so that everyone can tell me how good I am. ...You probably will

As you know I'm also learning Fantasie Impromptu right now which I don't know if I'll ever finish. It's harder than I thought and I don't know if I can get the hands together. But I won't give up. I must win.

Something about my life.

So earlier I made a post that had absolutely nothing to do with my what so ever and I really feel like writing about my day so here goes nothing.

Second semester started today which I was really bummed about when I woke up this morning UNTIL I WALKED INTO MY GLOBAL HISTORY CLASS. It's actually going to be the best class on the face of the planet. All my friends are in it. ALL OF THEM. It has Amanda, Dresden, Sam, Aaron, Griffin, Brent, Jordan and I'm sure there's a few others. Well I guess it's not all of them. We're missing Ben, Kelly, Chisom and a few others but it's still pretty awesome. 

Physics, on the other hand, SUCKS. Candace is in it so I'm stuck sitting with her which is alright I guess but I'd rather sit by someone else. Ashley and Sonja are in it too so it's the chem group back together again with the addition of Nick which is most excellent. He's pretty cool for a grade 11. The most notable person in this class would be Garrett. Indie kid extraordinaire and friends with bearded boy. It's nice to see him sitting in front of me. He kept on glancing back, why? I don't know but it's can't be bad right?

BAND WAS SO FUNNY TODAY! Ms. D filmed our conducting exam which is rather terrifying right? YES TIMES ONE-HUNDRED THOUSAND. We watched them all today and I died laughing. Luke's was sooooooooooooooooo good! I looked bi-polar in mine and Ben's was pretty amazing. You could see me dancing in the background. I haven't laughed that hard in a while.

Last class of the day was calculus. YAY. no. It was okay. It wasn't too hard but our teacher didn't get there til halfway through the class because he had to do something with his report cards. I'm not complaining it was just really boring. He's really monotoned so I almost fell asleep a couple times but the people in my class are great. It's the same as precal only Andrew isn't in it. It's going to be lonely without him but I get to sit next to Krystine which is really neat. She's a cool cat.

When I got home I watched some lie to me and then went to blockbuster (as you already know) AND THEN FORCED MY FAMILY TO WATCH DR. HORRIBLE'S SING-ALONG BLOG. I'm soooooo in love with that movie. CAPTAIN HAMMER. OH GOD. I love the fact that he's Castle. I think it adds an extra dimension to the movie. They didn't really like it but that's okay because it's amazing. After we finished that we watched Red which was amazing. 

I spend too much time watching movies. So far this week I've watched Sense and Sensibility, Dr. Sing-Along Blog (twice), High Art, and Red. Horrible'sGah. I need a life.....NAWT.

Racist Food?

Today on the way home from Blockbuster my father, brother and I were listening to CBC Radio One where they were airing a story about "racist food". To commemorate Marin Luther King day Berkley was serving chicken and waffles because it is soul food. After people found out about this there was much outrage. This confuses me because I don't believe that food can be racist.

We have been over sensitized to "race issues". I mean all you need to do is look at the cover of today's chronicle herald. The fact that we dwell on a cross burning that happened last year instead of all the positive things that are going on in our community just makes me sick.

We are the ones who are making race and stereotypes an issue. Recently I heard a story about people being offended for being passed up for a job because of their weight. Yes, this is unfortunate but if their weight is an issue for an employer that might mean that there is a problem with their condition. I'm not saying that we all have to be skinny little twigs but there needs to be a line drawn somewhere. People don't want to hire unhealthy people. 

We live in a weird world right now and we are over sensitive to a lot. Not everything is an attack. We really need to chill out.

Do you have any thoughts on this issue? I'd really love to heard them.

Snow days

So as you may or may not know last week was exam week. Exam week, one of the most dreaded weeks of the whole year. Monday review, Tuesday precal, Wednesday English Provincial, Thursday SNOW DAY, Friday, conducting,WEEKEND, Monday chem, Tuesday PD day, Wednesday SNOW DAY, Thursday SNOW DAY, Friday full day (it should have been a half day but Lundi sucks.).

yea so my week is looking up. I haven't been to school in 3 days and there's only one week left to the February break which is pretty sweet.

I still have a lot of half plans for Feb break. There's a lot of thing that I want to do but nothing that's really been completely planned.

There's going to be a lot of chilling with different people, concerts and lazing around but I don't know who with and at what times. It's really starting to get to me. I like everything to be planned out because if it's not then I end up sitting in my room all day blogging about things that no one cares about.   

so anyways I really hope that the next few days goes well. There has been promise of coffee from a certin bearded boy and me and Dresden are friends again so things are looking up (for now.).

Mindwinter Tea and Other Festivites.

First term is coming to a close and it couldn't happen too soon. I have one exam left to write tomorrow. It's chem and it's going to be brutal but I'm not going out without a fight and a lot of procrastination.

Seeing that the term is almost over we must celebrate! unfortunately the celebrating isn't going to start for another two weeks with out FEBRUARY BREAK. I hated the idea of it at the beginning of the year, I mean what am I going to do for two week? FREE CONCERTS THAT'S WHAT. I'm so pumped! party all day, party all night. chill with cool people and maybe even have some coffee with a certain bearded boy who shall not be named (SO PHYSCED.). It's going to be crazy

Of course me and my friends need a good end to this break so the weekend after it's all done and over we're having a tea party. A nice civilized afternoon where we sit around a table dressed in our Sunday best sippin tea and eating sweets. I might be more excited for this than any of the concerts. This summer for my birthday I had a tea party and it was a major success so I have high expectations for this gathering of awesomeness.

I'M SO EXCITED. Back to studying.

snow snow go away, if you do die I may.

That might not make much sense but away and day rhyme and that's whats really important. Can't have a lame blog without somewhat interesting titles now can we?

Yesterday we got hit by a snow storm and everyone was convinced that we wouldn't have school but for once our city pulled through and everything was opened today. Go figure. I was sure that we were going to have school. About an hour in t switched from small flakes to big flakes and you know what they say, Small flakes big snow, Big flakes small snow. That might only be for the Atlantic Provinces but whatever. FUN FACT! The Atlantic Provinces statistically speaking get more snow annually than any of the other province in Canada. It doesn't seem like it if you live here because it comes and goes so fast but it's still something to say. Our weather is really weird.

Exams are in two weeks. I'm so nervous there are no words for it. I have visions of chemical equations gone wrong, skips stepped in proof and beats missed while conducting. I can't wait for this month to be over. 

On the bright side I might get an exemption! WOOO! GOOD BYE PRECAL! But I need to double check that >.>. I also got my schedaul for next semester. Global History, Physics, Band/off and Calculus. Terrifying. My friend Ashley from Chem/precal is in my physics and calculus class and a lot a lot of my friends are in my Global class so it should be a great time.

I wish exams would hurry up and get here so I could get them over with and move on with my life. They're such a bother.

Nevermind. I don't feel like writing.

Today when I woke up I was feeling really optimistic about everything. Life in general was good. It went on the down hill slide after that. I was going to tell you that I'm sorry about complaining all the time and about my goals and my accomplishments that I made this week. But that all went down the tubes when i read into the dreaded wall of homework and self pity which is also know as ever sunday of ever. I mean really? whats so great about all this? nothing.

Another bad post for another bad day. When I get home from sax ensemble tomorrow I will write something happy. Maybe. If not, I apologize for being such a downer every single day of ever.

Stress Relief Day.

The lovely administration at my oh so wonderful school decided that we needed to learn how to be less stress. Great idea right? Wrong.

They had a cutesy assembly first period (my off block) which I opted out of (as in I hid in the band room) but from what I've heard I didn't miss much. By much I mean nothing at all. That was cool. It gave me a chance to do some much needed practicing on various instruments and I got to relax. My bestie wanted to go to the assembly but she didn't want to go alone so I think she's a little irked that I would rather practice that sit through something that I don't need to hear but my mother says I suck at reading people so maybe not. To be fair I did ditch her at lunch as well for some homework. That I lost, found and didn't finish. I'm such a great student. Instead of actually doing what I should I decided that playing more Fantsies Impromptu would be much more fun. And it was until Nick came. He said I sounded great but it makes me nervous when people watch me practicing. Ms. D and Mander are completely different because they're more like family than friends but normal people? They can't hear my mistakes.

Seeing that I didn't go to the assembly I got all morning band because as part of the "stress relief" we needed to do activities that are suppose to make us feel good and Ms. D (who is obvs my band teacher if you haven't picked up on that yet) was having a sight reading session so being the huge band geek I am when I found that out my name was all over it in big block letters (trying to deture all those who aren't at the same level as me from coming so we might actually be able to read through something interesting (also known as hard). My efforts were in vain because a whole bunch of grade 10's came and we got stuck sight reading easy stuff but I suppose that's alright. It wasn't a challenge and if I looked at it one more time it would be perfect. Apparently one of them might be one of our pieces for Disney so I'm kinda glad I got that sneak peek at it. It might be helpful later.

I have band again tonight (surprise surprise!) which is either going to be 1.) terrible, 2.) awkward, 3.) almost okay or a combination of 1 and 2 or 2 and 3 depending on how things go with a certin person WHO SHALL NOT BE NAMED. really? A scene kid? Over me? How very very lame (coming from the queen of lameness herself that's a hugeee insult just fyi)

Whenever I write these I always feel so narcissistic. Oh well!

So I found this on BOOOOOOOM! today and I thought you might like it. I don't know what I think of the music yet but the pics are defs awesome. It's up there in hipster hypnotizing videos! I hope you all wake up in plaid with cool hair.

New Years Blue

everyone always thinks the new year is a great time of year. You get to start with a clean state, fix old friendships, make new ones and reinvent yourself (Like I need a specific time of the year to do that..). But there are the unfortunate few of us who instead of feeling rejuvenated feel a gnawing feeling in our guts that something isn't right or something isn't good enough. Yes, my friends, I speak of the dreaded new years blues.

this is not so dissimilar to the equally horrible February blues because although February is the shortest month in our calendar it always feels the longs thus we all get stuck with the blues. I think it has a lot to do with the lack of sun and the abundance of darkness that surrounds us for the month but I digress. I'm stuck in a rut where all I can think about is "how can this year be any better than the last?". I mean, the last year hasn't been that great but if the last few months are an indicator of the way the next 12 months are going to be things aren't looking up. Never before have I been so busy, stressed, forgetful, irritable, angsty and generally hard to get along with and it's starting to bother me. But whenever I try to fix it and be a better person I just get frustrated with the idiots around me and go back to my ways of storming through the halls, pushing people out of my way and keeping to myself for the most part.

Today was my first full day back at school and my work load as already accumulated enough to make me want to go crawl into my bed. I mean really, your first day back should send you running for the hill should it? Whats worse is that I can't focus for more than a few minutes (this is really hard to write because I keep on looking at other things and it's just not good). So with that lovely combination of not being able to focus and piles of homework I can just feel the pressure mounting in my head.

I would say I need some nice relaxing music but I have plenty of that. So I think I'm going to curl up for a bit and listen to some Wintersleep and maybe get some sleep. I hope your new year is going way better than mine.

Whenever I try I fail.

So this morning when I woke up I was really dreading going to school but looking forward to English class for once in my life for two reasons 1.) I can finally return the books that Mrs. Abbass lent me that I finished reading over the break and 2.) I bought new clothes and washed them last night and I thought that certain hipsters in my class might finally notice me.  I was all ready. I showered, I didn't sleep on my hair, I had my skirt just right and my docs where laced perfectly. I get to school FIFTEEN MINUTES INTO PRECAL THEY SEND ME HOME. Apparently the school's water main broke? Go figure. I mean I'm glad I had an extra day to chill, read and listening to new music that me and my bestie Amanda found but I really wanted to go to English, REALLY BADLY.

I went to visit my band teacher this morning (because I'm a band geek) and she has a really good sense of style and she said I looked really cute and everyone said it looked great so I'm pretty sure that English class would have went over well for me but not I have to wait a whole week to try again (because I can't wear the same thing in one week.)

What do you think? I think it's lovely. I really like the picture of my docs. Whenever I see it it makes my heart all warm and fuzzy and whatnot.

This is my new favourite band. They're called Freelance Whales and they're amazing I mean look at how cute they look!

How can you not love that?

Well I have to go to band (against my will. I'm not to pleased. I'd like to have another week off from it but whatever.) Have a splendid time falling in love!

(thisoneismyfav)

Scissors lizzards

Christmas break is coming to an end and it's been a pretty decent time. I got to chill with my friends and I spent a lot of time with my family AND I GOT A PAIR OF DOC MARTENS! They're beautiful.

Of course, seeing that I have spare time, I spent the majority of it shifting through the internet trying to find cool pictures for tumblr and trying to put looks together for the dreaded lookbook and so far I actually posted one thing -le gasp-

Aren't I love? yes? no? yea...I know I'm not >.>

oh well.

So stumbleupon is the main way I find all the weird things I find. you hit stumble over and over agian and you're bound to find something great right? My latest find is a photo blog called scissors It's neat. My fav picture so far has been this:

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Because I have sooooo much street cred >.>

anyways I hope you all had a lovely holiday season and a happy new year!<3