lame to the highest extent

my heart is hurting
cause im still learning
you're not here to help
even though i begged an knelt
i wish the pain would go away
but i can find a way

RAGE! in poem form :)

Do you even like me at all?
Because for some strange reason
I'm thinking not at all
Look at what's going on between us
Communication is lacking
And all you're ever doing is relaxing
Well, my friend, this is the last straw!
Because I can't take it anymore!
Do you like me at all?
Answer please, before i fall.

A Summery of My Last Two Days

Okay so basically if you follow me on twitter//dailybooth you know the type of days I've been having. Mainly HORRIBLE.
It all starting with Driving school, which is extreamly boring, lucky yesterday was my last classroom class, but I had a test (30 multiple choice, i got an 87 :) the guy that finished before me only got an 80 aha) then I came home and ate cuz I didn't eat since breakfast (mothers fault there was no food in the house >.< it was really inconvenient) and then we watched the Escapist. I give it a 9/10. It was a little confusing because it jumped around quite a bit but it was a good movie overall and then I went to bed without talking to Anwell, yet again (can you tell that I'm a bit put out?)
And then today has been okay I guess. I feel kinda sick and bored, I watched the Fellowship of the Ring earlier and i just started the Two Towers. fun time :)
Hope you had a better weekend that I did :)
I'm so NOT making it through the week D:

Anwell sucks

Dear Anwell
You hurt me so
When i fell
In love with you
I know you don't mean to
But it hurts all the same
You pierced me through
Can we please stop playing this game?
I don't know what else to say
Because I'm running out of words
I don't think I'm okay
But I'll be fine

yea
just wrote that
like now
while i was posting
how lame am i?
VERY VERY
I blame Anwell. hes not on and hes suppose to be "oh yea I'll be on tomorrow LIES.

-sighs- first real blog. this is my life D:

i didn't write any poems today because i was stressed (i was suppose to have two quizes and a test but of on the quizs was postponed till monday. joy =.=)
i finally started to read The Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan last night. its pretty good.
speeking of last night the weirdest thing happened. my power went out for NO reason for an hour. it was the worst time ever (well really any time spend without internet is horrible but my electric blanket stopped working making the experance all the more uncomfortable
In other news the good weather that we've been having is GONE. last week was really really nice. it was like 15 everyday (which is really warm. can you say no sweaters?) and then it started slowly sliding back down and today its snowing. thats right. snow. in March. lovely isnt it?
on the bright side i get to talk to...wait i might not be able to BECAUSE MY MOTHERS MAKING ME PEEL POTATOES AT CHURCH. lame. uber lame. if i miss Anwell ill be angry.
Life? is enraging.

Lunch times bore me to death

wrote this at lunch. it confused my friends D:

Depression
is what fills
my head but only when

I am alone
and bruised
from all the

Fighting
the words of hate
that fill the

Air
is what i need
to breath and

Live
-ing isnt something
I do

Well
i how i
want to

Be
with you
for

Always
remember me
and never ever

Forget
the fact that
i love

You
is what i need
and lack



hope you dont think it sucks

My friend sent me this. I thought i was good, so i shared

If your dreams fly away on a birds broken wings,
I'd find that bird and stitch its wings so it may fly another day upon those dreams led astray.
And if those dream clouds start to snow and cover the land oh so cold,
I'd breath fire on those clouds, heat them up and make rain fall out.
But believe me dear those rains will stop and a rainbow will appear
Atop those dream clouds that ravish your land.
A spectacle of spectrum for dreams i once had

i hope he doesn't mind >.>

shortandfastand tothep

okay! soooo i dont really feel like blogging today so this is going to be really short!
i had a horrible day and i feel like crap!
band made my face MELT


tired eyes
see tired skies
sleepy bliss
rests on your lips
and up above
the stars shine bright
for us to find
our dying light
and in the morn
when the sun returns
i'll lay as i am
here in your hands

hope you have a lovely evening//whatever time it is when you're reading this!
chow!

My friends? they lie D: I suck at poetry.

As promised today i am sharing my murdered odes. D:
They're really quite brutal. If you read this I'd really appreciate some feed back...sooo..Love you?

Music
You save me
Everyday
You bring me up
When I am down
You spin me round
When I'm on the ground
The sadness that you sing
The freedom that you bring
Is better
Than chocolate

Hope you bring
To those who are down
An outlet
Is what we need
Out souls are gone
And you have been for so long
You bring them back
So we don't lack

Let my eyes run
With fear
And hate
Heal me
Save me
From all
That is
To come


Cloudy days
You seem
So very far away
You hide the sun
To protect my eyes
Ease my head aches
And sooth my pride

You bring rain
Tears from the sky
That bring life
And beauty
To the sky
You give us that smell
That we all enjoy
And that freshness
We all lust for

Please come back
And save me again
From the world
Where i can't fend


Spring time
Joyous bliss
Invites us in
The sun shines down
On the place we found
Sun shild reign
Has come to begin
Blonde hair
Blue eyes
Look up
To the sky
For inspiration

Blue as the sea
That we swim in
White as the sand
That we lay in
What you may ask
Could be better than this?
Only the fast
That we could see the fish

Then night time comes
Oh blackened sky
Brings sleep
To our tired eyes
Stars shine bright
Above our heads
And we fall asleep
On the beach

If you have any suggestions about anything you ever read that I've written please comment
<3<3

catching up. A poem a day, makes everything okay.

I've been writing a lot and not posting.
Enjoy.

why oh why am i here?
I feel like I'm drowning in fear

If I could fly
I'd go away
If I could die
It would be in May

Oh fate waht crule cards you've delt
everytime I see you face i melt

And when i stay awake at night
Thinging about the last time i saw the light
Thinking about how much we fight
Thinking about how you're as high as a kite

You say you want to quit
but are you really being ligit?
Why do you have to be so lame
What do you have to claim
Why can't you just see
What i really want us to be?

I know you live miles away
I wish you would come here and stay
You graduate at the end of the year
But i don't know if i can keep waiting for you to appear

You make me smile
Please don't put me on exile
I love you.


Tell me you love
Tell me you care
Stop dropping signs
Cause this is where i draw the line

Help me figure it out
Because I'm just really thick
I can't keep afloat
But i think we click
Save me

Tell me you're on your way
Tell me everythings going to be okay
Make me believe it
So i wont leave it

Help me learn to live
Because i don't know if i can
Stop me before i fall
But not if you don't care
Save me

Tell me what you think
Tell me I look good in pink
Let me understand
So I can take your hand

Help me save your life
Because i can't all by myself
Don't make me be a fool
I don't want to disappoint
Save me

Let me know whats going on
Let me know for how long
Let me help
Let me be
Let me love you
Then you'll see
How great it all can be

It's hard to breath
When you keep smothering me

You put so many limitations
On my Creations

What you're doing is not right
What happen to sucking the marrow out of life?

I know you're not suppose to choke on the bone
But that's hard when you're feeling so alone

And if you wish to be free
In thought, word and deed
Help me
And we will be free

Here we are contained
And here we are restrained

I just want to sing
And let it ring

Please let me out

Dear Depression
Please go away
When you're here
And when you're near
All hope is lost
At absolutely no cost

You make me so sad
And ever so mad
The things you put me through
Just will never do
One day i may win
When i lock my heart up in a tin
Because all of my pain
comes from my heart thats badly maimed

tomorrow we do odes
that have been sitting in a stack
just waiting to be hatched
love you.

contemplations of a 16 year old.

cleaned my room today

my messy desk
is a sign of an artist
but what art do i create
other than fear love and hate?
always puzzling forward
yet so far behind
and all i can really do
is come up with this line
what do you do?
when no one likes you.
what can you be?
when everything is taken for free.
where are we going.

my fish thank me but my hands don't